love you all! -hermana bedke
It's a simple thing he asks, a worthy heart and willing hands. He says if I make the choice, he'll help me find my voice. He calls me to serve and I cannot fail him, the one who has given me all that I am. I place my trust in him alone. He knows the yearning of my soul. Because he believes in me, I will go willingly. How can I keep this gift to myself when I can lift somebody else. I am a witness of his miracles and his mercy. I place my future in His hands, knowing He's made me all I am. When I put my faith in him the truth begins to speak. His power is real. I trust in his will. I will not be still.
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Tuesday, May 3, 2011
so, i figured this letter might be fun to write in gratitude list form...a bit more informative than my usual phrase of "i'm loving everything"--though that is true. here we go...i absolutely love:-my family. at home and at the mtc. i love that especially when i miss people at home i'm blessed to have my brothers and sisters (btw 4 more came into our zone this week) here--and the wives of the branch presidency who help fill the role of mom. mostly because i can hug them. -the temple. in the past month, not a day has gone by where i haven't learned something new about that place. i feel the love of my Heavenly Father more than ever before. -elders engaging in destructive powerwalking, talking with a banana phone, assisting in giving sports commentary with a word from sponsors during gym time..., carrying my tray a lunch time, impersonating general authorities, and making handcrafted bookmarks. however, all these things make it really hard to say goodbye to said elders when they finally leave to the field. thus, yesterday was quite hard...but happy at the same time. -the things i learn about myself when i forget myself. it's downright amazing what the spirit can do. -for teachers who understand the aforementioned..who teach by the spirit and never cease to amaze me. i feel so blessed to have hno. coles and hno. ridge as my teachers. so blessed. -to know this is exactly where i'm supposed to be.-and the following events: -to understand overcoming addiction, everyone in our district has given something up. to help me teach more powerfully, mine was the word "um," which brings me to my next item. -i gave my first spanish talk in sacrament meeing yesterday. granted, i could not have done it without the spanish preach my gospel, but i did it. i said the word "um" 27 times... -i've also commited to give up singing any songs that are not gospel-related, and the word "crap." This was especially difficult the first few days, while after every time i started singing a secular song, i'd get frustrated and say "crap." double whammy. but i'm getting better. -trying to speak spanish has made for some interesting miscommunication to say the least. the other day i asked an investigator if he believed in spanish. to whic he replied, "yes, i believe in spanish very much...." and while teaching another investigator, i somehow interpreted "novia" to mean grandmother. so i was a bit confused when our investigator was having problems with the law of chastity...with his grandma. but we got it cleared up. my companion has also blessed us to die several times....but i think god got it because i'm still here. much love, hermana bedkep.s. i need a few things. could sarah get grant and jean's email address for me if posible? then they could be added to the list of forwardees. also, i'm on a journal writing high and i need another. they sell some here but they are not downright adorable. maybe while i'm here in the mtc you could send me one that's cute..and preferably not with "loser" written on the inside :) i'm also in charge of musical numbers in church, and i'm missing some of my piano music. on my bookshelf are two piano binders. i want the one that's not blue. i think it's pink. or purple. or you can send both but that might be heavy. thanks bunches. i also hope that people have been getting invididual letters. leaving off the return address makes me a little nervous. i'll do better from now on...you can expect handwritttens to be sent today. promise.
April 24, 2011
I wanted to write and let you kow that our schedule has changed and P-day is now on Thursday. Hopefully you get this before that day comes. Anyway, that’s why there is no e-mail. Also, I know I requested some items earlier. If they remain unsent, could maybe stick in that box a watch (because, go figure - my $4.00 watch fell apart....so....since el regalo es muy importante para un misionera, por favor...send one.) and one of my companion’s birthday is coming up. she is an artist and says what she misses most is painting with her hands. So, I’d like to request one set of finger paints please. Maybe even the really cool clear kind? Your choice. I’m really sorry to be laundry listing this stuff, pero...les quiero! (That means I love you all)....So one of the things I’ve been learning is the power of fasting. The brethren, when they have a sacred assignment, go into it fasting. And so many scriptures testify that fasting is an essential part of solidifying one’s testimony. So, I plan on and have been fasting a lot. I’m telling you this because I have no way to pay a fast offering here. I want to ask if you could pay a little extra for me. You can even write it down and I will reimburse you in 18 months. I just know it is important. Thanks. And I don’t know if Andrew forwarded this message, but I won’t be calling home on Mother’s Day. They don’t have enough phones in the MTC for that to be possible. However, when I get my travel plans I will let you know what time I will be at the airport, because I am allowed to phone home then and even if it is the wee hours of the morning, I expect an answer. Got it? Well, a page later...guess I should get on with how my week went. In retrospect I think that the MTC experience is a bit of an emotional roller coaster. I know with an eternal perspective that the Lord is molding me into the woman he wants me to be and truth be told, I am glad it is hard. The Lord shows us weaknesses to make us strong. I know that and I know that no one is exempt from struggles - even the righteous. It is how we respond to those struggles that makes us who we are. There’s nothing we experience that can’t bring us closer to Christ. So, with that preface, these past few days have been hard, but I’m coming out of this dip knowing more than ever who’s child I am. I’ve never felt closer and more loved by God than I do now. I know that it is when we doubt that He cares that we run the risk of truly disconnecting ourselves with Him. We have to rely on him through the hards times and in doing so we understand the Atonement. It’s so real and I can’t wait to tell Mendoza Argentina that.... On Tuesday we had an apostle for devotional.. (Ok, that sounded a bit weird. Just to clarify, we did not eat him.) But Richard G. Scott came and my goodness it was fantastic. Mid- talk he asked who in the audience was learning a foreign language. Almost everyone raised their hands. He then said that he wished to exercise his apostolic power and bestowed upon all of us the gift of tongues. That we would be able to master our languages. And it was there. I know Heavenly Father’s with me on this Spanish comprehension...We are so blessed to have living prophets on the earth and I know that they love us. They love us because they love Christ and I hope to do the same. I want others to be able to feel the Savior’s love through me. The best lessons we’ve experienced so far are the ones where we’ve put our hears in the right place. The Spirit’s the real teacher. If I can just communicate that love to people, I think they’ll be able to remember who they are...Anyway, life is so good...I’m blessed probably more than I deserve. pero, I know God desires to give good gifts to his children. All he requires is our willingness to do what he’s asked and He’s waiting to bless us and make us stronger. I love this gospel more than ever and I know if I do His will, I’ll never love it less.
Growing Hermana Bedke
(P.S. The herman thing has really caught on. Thanks, pops!